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Monday, August 17, 2009

9:40 PM

competition feels so good.
i've hardly felt so alive in the past few weeks XD

&the beauty.

7:22 PM

I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom
When it came my time to go --
I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, pap, I don't think I
Said 'I love you' near enough --

i dunno. it seems so poignant. and sad. and almost like finishing up this chapter of my life and opening up another. of course the song is on a whole different erm level of meaning from what im thinking. but still. there are so many father figures in my life, and its not that they're dying lah, but isn't it always that we miss things only when they're gone? and that when we lament and pine it's all too late to remedy the pain. and to my biggest father figure

i never said 'i love you' near enough...

oh dear me. i need to learn to love back.

anddd. the song's stuck in my head. sigh

&the beauty.

7:03 PM

oh right, and on another note.

i was on shuffle on my ipod, and well... if i can get cadenza dvd out, i think i would like to try to get the video out. the song leader of the band seems so appropriate. sounds like its one year late, but nevertheless, it really resounded in me. and well, kinda weird that it was the tuesday of our last band week and i didnt even know ><

and i honestly dont know what to do with the cadenza video. its hanging so much. the file is too big for even the black mac to handle. sigh. should i remake it all over again? and pray it hopes right this time? then again, it took so long to handle, and all that i need is just a couple of clicks to move the chapters into the right place. but it takes 10 minutes to just open the file. how how how. i want to get it out. farewell is so soon and looming above our heads.

and i really dont feel confident in leaving.

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
Im just a living legacy
To the leader of the band.

&the beauty.

6:52 PM

i've got withdrawal syndrome. and more especially after what happened today and reading jiaxuan's post kinda opened up everything.

its so scary to live life as if there is no tomorrow, as if everything might come to an end the moment you live it. so live it well, live it good, never regret something while you're walking away, cuz it might just slip through your fingers and run away.

its as if i havent been taught enough. that everything i know has been taken? yah, definitely. like i still need to grasp the concept cuz everything time i pick it up, it slips through my hand like sand.

the harry potter game made my life easier. and funnier. and more exhilarating =) and better still, taught me there's more to life than just riding the waves to the next crest. maybe deep inside the trench there's something worth finding? and worth cherishing. hm, and definitely that something that looks unimportant may give you some good times. i had never touched a gaming console (save for sam's Wii) ever in my life, yet it can be so fun and fulfilling. cuz sometimes in life we've gotta try. and cherish. and never let go till it slips away on the slightest wisp of the wind.

somehow im more motivated to do work? my physics file is rapidly doing better. cuz i want so much to do better. cuz i know i can and that if i try i will. i dont want the next 14 days of school to be a waste. only a couple more blocks till the end. although we still will have math and chinese and cle and pe lessons, it wont feel the same.

kinda funny. i got down to work on physics and chinese the moment i got home. which is weird in a way.

so i guess, delve into work and live life fully?

i keep getting little jolts once or twice a week to tell me to cherish my life more, and stop putting things off till later. thank you Lord, for telling me these little things in little ways. i hope i will continue going on and finding my way. the path that He wants me to tread. i hope i find it soon. and stop fiddling around with time.

&the beauty.

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