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Monday, June 15, 2009

4:34 PM

more thoughts on the now. instead of tomorrow or later or whatever not.

for one thing. my blog lacks pictures. except maybe the one on top. pics or videos, whichever.
and speaking of videos. im heartily tired of making that cadenza dvd. the freakin mac takes ten minutes just to process a request, much less burn it. yeah i know i've been such a relentless hogger, where i have the whole cadenza soundtrack but people dont. but seriously, try sifting through every song in the catalogue. where the pure video of just centurion is 20 plus gb in itself. and see whetehr your comp can take the overload. wonder how those movie makers do it, where the movies are so overloaded with special effects and CG. and poeple just pay 9 bucks to see a project that was worth a couple of years of a person's life. and movie stars who work so little, are paid so much, and take everything for granted.

so. shall change my blog face for a while. remake it. the image.

and its so hard. i dunno why my tongue just ties up whenever i see people in pain, confusion, crying over something they feel deeply inside. whenever i want to comfort them, to let them know im there for them and i'll take your crap and ranting if that makes it feel better. everytime the words are on my mouth, i think over them, hesitate, wonder if it will com out all wrong. so i either wont say it and let others do the job of comforting or say it and it does come out all wrong. maybe its why no one will really lean on me. except my family. cuz they know how weird i am. weirdly though, even my sister can take my craps. cuz i take hers as well. funny how we all keep silent.

off to durian now. cant express how worried i am for all of them. but i wont show. not yet at least. cuz my second aunt is lying on a hospital bed in her home. and i havent done anything. why does regret come often too late. why didnt the regret during the last holidays push me to do something more. so here's a less superficial resolution. i wanna take control of my life and stop taking the people in my life for granted. family are family. there's no way you can escape or push them away. so lean on them, cry and laugh with them, cuz they ain't going away.

new book of the day!! Faces.
and the sins of the fathers shall reverberate though the generations.

one thing i dont like about it. every sentence every character speaks is rude or has the f word in it. but its a literary device, so i shall let that pass eh?
lost in the forest was better than virgin on the small plains. =)
and im currently hooked on to the isavalta trilogy. although i have no idea why the chronologically speaking, the second book is first, the first book is second, and the third book is where its supposed to be.

&the beauty.

Julia G Andres
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to truly become a Christian and be closer to Our Lord
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for this year 2009 to be a fun and fulfilling one
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