you're a mystery yourself
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
7:51 PM

my dad recently blocked a couple of stuff on my computer. apparently i dont spend enough time studying. yeah right.

and im irritated. i cant see my blog now. but i can still log on to the blogger dashboard. i guess the parental control thing isnt so comprehensive after all.

and i dunno. i guess im like jealous of those ppl who have real friends beside them trying to bear the load for them as well. i just try to keep things inside till they really explode. and when it does, im all alone. trying to hide. i guess raw emotions arent very pleasant. and yes, not mature and not considerate at all. even maybe my parents wouldnt understand. i think too much and twist things all up and upside down and inside out and then bottle it up. and smile and look happy at outside things.

but somehow ppl being sad rubs off too. i dunno. i feel so useless. much as i would like to try to be such a stable person, i cant. grah. am i even making sense? i know what i have to do, yet its such a long reach to the top, even if you have role models along the way to help you.

and i wish my parents would just stop fighting. this has been the longest cold war ever. and i keep finding wine glasses in the morning. if my dad's drinking wineeeee. he could just whine abt it to me. im up all night. why does he have to drink. and eat chips. man. i think the depressed members of the family do binge a lot.

and the swine flu. yeah. i know a lot about disappointment. but i dont show my feelings.

actl correction. i dont hide my negative emotions all the time. i have been totally disappointed in myself before when i let my bad temper show in band.
am i just asking too much? so setting too high standards?or just i've been too easy on myself and on those people? or i let ppl lead me? funny, how my last year in band is turning so awry. and how i get wrought up in so many emotions all the time. how it isnt the best year of my life where i cant let everything go. when you've got the gold pot, it doesnt look so enticing anymore. sometimes the trip up the rainbow with your friends was so much better.

so well. bottle it up again. laughter's the best medicine.
so come 2moro, if you even read this. you've got friends beside you, ready at your call. at least you've got friends.. and they do care about you. i see so many willing to stay there for you. dont go thru it by yourself.

and we can all be strong together. and things will get better i hope.
and if they dont then well, just rmb the good times. the life as we knew it.

cheer up.

&the beauty.

me

Julia G Andres
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